Peace Like A River

So here I am, just about 6 weeks pregnant and I have enter this fabulous world of "wow, I have REALLY gotta GO!!!!" It's a fascinating new world learning to "go" before I really HAVE to, thus eliminating the need to run as fast as I can for the nearest Ladies Room. My first Sunday at church yesterday taught me this brand new lesson. When Sunday School is finished at 10:45, I need to use the Ladies Room even if I don't really have to. If I don't I will inevitably have to charge out in the middle of the service like I had to yesterday! This is something that I do not like to do. I have also learned that there is no such thing as "holding it" for any length of time longer than, oh, say about 5 minutes! So there I was squirming in my pew crossing and uncrossing my legs not wanting to get up and disrupt the whole church because, come on, we ALL look at the people who get up during services. You can't NOT see them, it's very distracting. Hence the reason I always stay seated. So as I squirm around Jimmy asks me what's wrong and I whisper that I need to go. So he tells me to "just go". Easier said then done for a girl that was taught to sit still and pay attention during sermons. Finally, I could take it no longer and I hopped up from my seat so certain that EVERY eye was on me and they were all thinking, "there goes the pregnant lady, off to pee!" EMBARRASSING!!....

I made it to the ladies room in time and it felt soooooooooooooo good!!

So I return to my seat and settle in for the last 20 min of the sermon and lo and behold, here comes that wonderful urge again! OK, I can SOOOOO hold it this time. YES, Pastor is closing in prayer!! OK, pray FASTER!!...OK, now we're gonna sing our last song...Peace Like A River?? You've GOT to be kidding me!!! OK, I can survive, we only ever sing ONE verse of the last song anyway...wait! What did Steve Murphy just say? All THREE VERSES??? Now I'm singing about Peace like a RIVER, love like an OCEAN and joy like a FOUNTAIN!!!! At this point I know I will not make it to the downstairs ladies room, my only hope is to bolt to the FRONT of the church, charge through the conference room and use the single bathroom in the back. OK, the song is ending, relief is in sight...Why is Pastor coming back UP the aisle?? Oh great, another announcement...OK, Hurry Steve, close in prayer. Pastor FINALLY stops talking and I begin to run out of my pew and Steve is TALKING, NOT PRAYING! I stop dead in my tracks halfway out of my pew and cross my legs and bend over, praying that he prays soon!!! FINALLY, he bows his head and before the first sentence of his prayer is complete I am through the conference door and well on my way to that fabulous closet of a bathroom in the back! Thank you LORD, I made it in time!!

It's pretty funny now that I wrote about it! haha! Oh, Peep, I love you so much already and I hope one day you read this and laugh at your silly Mommy!! <3

...and Baby makes 3!!!!

I am expecting my first child!!!!!

I've waited my whole life to write that!! April 15, 2011 will forever remain in my heart and mind as a day when I saw an answer to a prayer that I have prayer for many, many, many, many years!!

August 1, 2010, I blogged about wanting to be a mommy. It was kind of a sad post as I poured my heart and soul out in writing. I cried as I wrote it, I cried as I proofread it and I cried as my friends read it. I haven't looked back at it since that day and I was elated to read it this morning! The best part was that I can now answer 3 of the 10 questions I asked. So here we go!!!


Q1.What is it like to look down after three min and see two pinks lines? What runs through your head? Does your heart skip an excited beat?

A. Well, here's what happened. I thought I had an ovarian cyst that was preventing my period from coming and so I woke up that morning and decided that I would try to find a natural herb or vitamin that would aid the cyst in dissipating. It was then that a little voice inside told me to just check to be sure I wasn't pregnant. I had one test (a Clear Blue digital) left and so I did was was required and laid the test on the bathroom counter and walked away. Gracie was awake and I was like 99.99999% sure that I wasn't pregnant and I was just doing this to be cautious before I took any kind of new herb. After we were dressed and headed downstairs to breakfast I remembered the test and thought I'd better grab it. I peeked my head around the corner and looked down at the test and there in all it's glory was the word PREGNANT!!...."OH MY GOODNESSS, THANK YOU!!!!" is what ran through my head! I thought I was dreaming and I walked out of the bathroom on shaky legs and fell next to the bed and pressed my head to the floor praising GOD and thanking Him over and over and over as I bawled my eyes out! Gracie sat on the bed quite amused at the scene. haha!....I'm not sure of my heart skipped a beat or not. It was so full of love and worship that I really am not sure if it was skipping or leaping!!

Q2. What's it like in those precious moments after seeing the pink lines? Do you look in the mirror and beam back at your gleaming eyes? Do you start thinking of how to tell your husband in the most perfect way?

A. Those precious moments are equal to nothing else I have ever felt in my ENTIRE life! Praising the LORD and thanking Him for the life inside of me is something I cannot explain, there are just not enough words!...I didn't look at myself in the mirror until later on and when I did, my eyes were indeed GLEAMING!...No, I did not start thinking of how to tell Jimmy in the most perfect way. I kinda just walked with the test in one hand and Gracie on my hip and walked into the bedroom where he was sleeping soundly and cried my eyes out over him saying, "James, James, I'm gonna have a baby! " hahahahahahahaa!

Q3. What is it like to see the faces of beloved friends and family when you tell them the news? Are the images of their widened eyes, and shrilling shrieks seared into your mind forever?

A. Paula and Steve were the first ones we told. They arrived at my house at 8am. (Paula to run with me, and Steve to have breakfast with Jimmy). I was holding Gracie and I turned to Paula and told her that I had talked with Jimmy and I wanted her to go somewhere with me. She later told me that she was wondering what kind of scheme I had come up with that Jimmy had agreed to! LOL! Anyway, so I said," It will be on or around December 16th" at which point she burst into tears and started jumping up and down and ran over and said, "Hiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!" and kissed and stroked my belly!! hahahahaha! that was the best ever! After lots of hugging and lots more hugging and lots of tears and lots more hugging the boys headed out for coffee and I texted Dorothy to see if she was up yet. She was!! (oh yes and it was her birthday so she thought I wanted to come walk with her for her birthday...PERFECT excuse!! haha! She didn't suspect a thing!) Dorothy was waiting outside as we pulled up and as Paula took Gracie out for me I hugged Dorothy and told her that Paula and I were going somewhere in Dec and we wanted to know if she would come with us. She immediately gasped and said, "DISNEY WORLD!!!" (This is our dream, that one day the 3 of us will be able to go to Disney World together when it's decorated for Christmas). I said "Noooooooo, it's on or around Dec 16th" and she stared at me quizzically and asked, "Where are you going?" and I replied, "into labor!" Her face went from questioning to ecstatic in like a nanosecond and she started screaming and jumping up and down!! LOL! It was quite a sight and very exciting, I'll never forget it! It is def seared into my mind and heart forever!
There are many other great stories about how I told others. Most of them thought I was playing a late April Fools joke! haha! Especially my baby sister, who was celebrating her 25th birthday!!! haha! What a wonderful day!

Extra Special moment: Realizing that on that very day, in 1986, my Mommy was so joyful and happy, having given birth to my sister, and 25 years later, I felt the joy and happiness of discovering my fist baby is on the way!


"Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart."(Psalm 37:4)

Quiz for Seth

The following is a cute idea that my friend had. Fill out a grown-up quiz but answer the questions for your kids.

Seth's Quiz

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? Seth, son of Adam and Eve

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? at naptime because I had a cramp in my leg. Uncle Jimmy gave me Tylenol and Pooka rubbed it

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HAND WRITING? I am getting better every day and I especially like letter "J" because Pooka says, "dowwwwnnnnn and go whoop!" to make it!

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? I don't like lunch meat

5. DO YOU LIKE KIDS? yes,I love to play!

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? Only if I didn't take my own toys from myself...

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM? I am too young to know what sarcasm is...

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? Ya

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? Pooka would never let me NEAR such a thing!

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? Oatmeal Squares

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? Nope, I have zips!

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? the ice cream that Pooka surprises me with sometimes!!

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? Their toys

15. RED OR PINK? red, like my remote control car from Counsins Jon, Bailey and Brandt for Christmas that has been through 4 sets of batteries already!

16. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? I'm three, therefore in my eyes, I'm perfect and all the world revolves around ME!

18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST? (shrugs)

19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? I'm in bed for naptime, I'm in naptime clothes

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? my dreams

22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Why would I wanna be a crayon? crayons are for snapping in half and laughing!

23. FAVORITE SMELLS? chicken nuggets and chech-up!

24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? Jimmy. Pooka let's me call him on the intercom when he's in his office and she needs him downstairs for something

26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH? Foosball at church!

27. HAIR COLOR? brown

28. EYE COLOR? dark, dark brown. The same color as my pupil, it's really neat!

29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? No

30. FAVORITE FOOD? chicken nuggets and chech-up

31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? I like Barney and Little Einsteins!

32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Well, I tried to watch Beauty and the Beast in Pooka's van yesterday but for some reason the screen would not show the movie, we could only hear it. Pooka and Unca Jimmy can't figure out what's wrong!

33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? I'm sleeping in naptime clothes, so it really doesn't matter!

34. SUMMER OR WINTER? I'm 3. As long as there is something to peak my interest, I'll take any weather!

35. HUGS OR KISSES? I like hugs when I wake up and kisses when I see Pooka in the morning when Daddy drops me off. But when Pooka kisses me other times I run away laughing and wipe them all off and she chases me!!

37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? Respond to what? My sad crying? Pooka or Unca Jimmy!

38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? To what? my tantrums? Pooka!

39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? Pooka is reading a book about the Declaration of Independence and another one all about New Jersey. Sometimes I play with feathers while she reads. I'm only 3 and I am not going to remember all of what she reads but I liked when she talked about Patrick Henry's prayer, "Give me LIBERTY or give me DEATH"

40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? a mouse pad? You mean where my ZuZu pet lives? He just lives in the toy box with Gracie's ZuZu pet.

41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT? my shows

42. FAVORITE SOUND(S)? When Pooka says, "OK,you can get that" at the store

43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? I like rolling stones a lot!! Stones and rocks are really neat!! Beatles kinda scare me and I shriek like a girl 'cause it's a bug but I like to look at them if Unca Jimmy holds me

44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME? I went to Disney World last year!! YAY!!! I saw Mickey Mouse!! Pooka says we might go around Christmastime! I HOPE SO!!

45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? Yes, I am 3 and cute!

46. WHERE WERE U BORN? St Peter's New Brunswick, NJ